In the moment of terrible misery and pain of life, when the ball of death approached, when it seemed that almost everything in our life path had come to an end, we had a dizzying experience, as if we were seeing the extreme pain of my life path and its end.

 On the path to which I have given up and decided to dedicate my life entirely to the throne of God, risking my life to die, on the path of my life to which I have dedicated myself, why am I still on today when the burden of extreme hardship has been imposed on me in the pain of death, and I have stood on the path of wandering on the road of life as if the road of life is nearing its end,

In the moment of terrible misery and pain of life, when the ball of death approached, when it seemed that almost everything in our life path had come to an end, we had a dizzying experience, as if we were seeing the extreme pain of my life path and its end. A long week has passed, as if we were now seeing the darkness of a long death, with great sorrow on the road to the extreme suffering of an incurable disease that cannot be easily cured by the care of a well-known physician, approaching the final death. The intense pain of death added to the dizziness, and it was even more painful to see the pain of death, the final end of human life, where there seemed to be no tomorrow in sight.  In the course of life's path, where a series of catastrophes overlapped because the moment of extreme suffering became dizzying and sad, we were completely unprepared for the worst phase of life, the worst of life, the moment when we were completely unprepared, we were shocked by the psychological shock waves that caused us to fall into extreme spiritual exhaustion, and in the worst of circumstances, my cerebrum was surprised by the dizzying situation as if the visual vision of my eyes was white. We have gone to the point where we have been overwhelmed by the shockwaves of trials, in situations where we are so dizzied by the passage of time when we are so susceptible to the shockwaves of trials when we are so susceptible to suffering when we are so distraught that we can find no meaning in life when we can hardly think of the meaning of life, and when we are constantly doubting the path of faith that we have always followed, and being overrun by Satan, who shakes our fragile hearts. Now, once again, we are reaffirmed of the preciousness of our faith in the face of a dead-end path of extreme trials, to make up our minds and to hold fast to the path of faith for God, firmly in our hearts, that we cannot wander in our prayer life without finding the exact path of God's providence and will, which we must grasp and follow.  Today, the continuation of our sufferings make me think about the true God's path of suffering, the providence of life, and what His will is, and we pray again to find and find clearly what the Creator God for me wants to say to me in the midst of the calamity of trials on the path of my life and to accurately grasp and know exactly the way in which God the Creator leads the life.   In the midst of extreme hardship, we decided to find out through my prayers what providentially is the purpose of finding a way out of the maze, finding a way out, and finding a purpose.   What suffering is now bringing to me is that it seems that we no longer have a vision of life, that my future and my future seem to have come to an end, so that I am in reality, with the vitality of life now in my hands, and with nothing visible to me, I spend the whole day abandoning my personal affairs and all that, clinging entirely to prayer and seeking God's grace. We had to go through a very painful week at this crossroads, a long series of pains in the midst of great turmoil on the road of my life. We cannot live as losers or losers in life, having been defeated by Satan in the spiritual battle against Satan the Devil on the path of faith that we have thoroughly followed. We cannot bow our knees in our lives and in our lives of faith to Satan's spiritual harassment, defeated in our spiritual battles with Satan in our life paths, in the extreme sufferings Satan has placed on us, in the real pain of the extreme torments that Satan has placed on us.   Now, in the midst of extreme suffering, the moment of death seems to be around me at the moment, the path of life, the fury, the passion of extreme sorrow, the moment of anger in my life, and the frustration of the downgrading of my life on the road of my life, the frustration of my life, the degradation of my life's level, has shattered my life. My pride in life was destroyed, and I felt that my status in the world was lower than that of the world, which made me even more distressed. The path of true faith does not open us to the possibility of opportunity. In such a situation, even if we endure and endure, there is no sign of solving the bad situation in reality, and in the end, even if we struggle, it will be difficult for us to walk the path of the great blood battle and hardship of the survival game of life against the evil world with our will alone. It is also a faith-based path in life that I cannot handle on my own and with my own energy.   It is not an easy path for me to give up my daily routine and focus on prayer while looking only at God for a long day centered on me, who is trying to solve everything by my own strength without being fully conscious of the way to live in the providence and will of God the Creator and the exact direction of heaven. Such a miserable and terrible situation, in which the wrath of God the Creator has befallen us in the midst of extreme suffering and various calamities, is now producing an even more difficult extreme situation.  It seems to us that we are passing through the moment of spiritual struggle with Satan, in the path of the warrior of heaven, which teaches us that we must live as warriors in heaven, like the last warrior who risked death in the path of spiritual warfare against Satan, in the sad situation of extreme death, my weakness in the midst of suffering beyond our limits, and the life of the last prayer for my life.